In December, 2018, just before Christmas, we welcomed our son, John Wells Benoit, into the world, our family, and our hearts. He is the most special and precious, he amazes me everyday, and I feel so honored to get to be his Mom. For me, entering motherhood has been the most powerful, transformative, humbling experience of my entire life, bar none. From the hardest moments of labor and delivery, to the first time I held him in my arms, through the trying newborn days, and every day since then, I have been on an incredible journey of personal growth. I have experienced love, joy, and hope in my heart like never before, but also fear, exhaustion, anxiety, sadness, and despair like never before (sometimes all in one day, or even one hour!). Every moment of motherhood has been an opportunity to choose to go a little deeper, love a little harder, be a little more present, give a little more (okay, a lot more), and show up no matter what. And this experience has, absolutely without a doubt, broadened my view and expanded the lens through which I see my work with children, families, and parents.
The postpartum journey is challenging, and mine was no different. I, myself, was diagnosed with postpartum depression, and underwent the process of healing over several months. While every mother’s experience is different, and no two are exactly alike, I can at least now say that I have a deep, first-hand understanding of the heartbreak, pain, and scariness of that experience which I had heard parents and mothers describe to me for so long. And the reality is, it’s so much more common than you realize, and it’s absolutely not talked about enough. If you’re reading this and find yourself in a similar spot, please know you are not alone. And now, having made it to the other side, my journey through that time has emboldened my passion to help support other mothers and parents moving forward in the ways I can.